ハナムケ

花が咲いて散り逝くように
出会いの数だけ別れがある
You know it, too.
割り切れない寂しさなら
その思いごときつれてゆこう
I have to go.

(今　未来に期待できるのは )
君に逢えたという(かけがえない印があるから)
you know, you know

ハナムケには　いつものように　さよならしよう
(Don't ever say good-bye)
じゃまたね、と　まるでまた明日　会うみたいに
Don't ever say good-bye

夢に敗れ　立ち尽くすまま
誰も彼もがんばれてた　たやすく言う
I used to do.
友達でも恋人さえ
見守ること
それしかできない時もある

(もしも何かあきらめなくちゃ )
ならないときが来ても
(絶望なりとしないで君を)
No No No

ハナムケなら　涙じゃなくて　笑顔見せて
Don't say good-bye.
今日限りに　もう逢えないと　わかってても
Please say good-bye

(君といたい )

君の頬にひとひら
張り付いてた花びら
だけど気づかないふりした

今日限りに　もう逢えないと　知ってるから
ハナムケには　いつものように　さよならしよう
じゃまたね、と　まるでまた明日　会うみたいに
Don't ever say good-bye

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Tuesday, January 02, 2007

went SPCA wif wendy today. smelly =~
oops! i sound like one real spoilt brat. haha. but the dog area was really...smelly.
the kitties are much better. no smell and sooooooooooo kewt!!
i wanna have a kitten!! but there were 2 fierce ones. one bite wendy*ouch! another clawed me!
but then u noe, they may have been badly abused hence it's defence mechanism. so poor thg.
why do those ppl rear a pet when they eventually abandoned it?
it's a LIFE. sigh... humans. we bought a life for a few thousand dollars and we think we can do anythg to them. evil. so unfair.

we went kbox after tt and sang some really siong oldies. hahaha. the worst one was andy lau's ma tong!!! haha. best part is the waiter had to enter when i was abt to sing "qing ai de ma tong" hahaha XD so diu lian! but i kinda missed the 90's songs. so classic sia. so long nv hear liao can still rem how to sing. the composer is really li hai man!

sch's reopening tmr. haven done one bit of proj. D-I-E. i jus got no motivation. i c my grp i feel like suiciding. haha. ok la uncle's fine, maybe?! haha. mus start on IP soon... but but... i'm so addicted to w-inds. kouhaku perf this yr!!! man! it was.... outrageous!!! haha... outrageously good of cuz! everthg was so rite. the costume, the song, the dance.... ooooooooh~~~~ boogie woogie 66
esp ryu-kun! totemo kawaii!!!!! his clothes was like the best! i love that workman jumper!!!! he looks uber suave in it!! esp when he lift his jacket in one of the dance moves *x* i swear i kinda forgot who's keita then.. hahha... and his hair! oh man!!! he finally got a good haircut again!!!! i love ryuichi!!!!!!! he looks soooooooooooooo good. and then and then he was soooooooooooooooo kewt!!!! he tou xiao during the dance.. think camera nv take him then no one see?? ahhhhhhhhhh hahaha.. chigau!!!! i saw it!!! so kewt XD tt lil tiger tooth~ k~a~w~a~i~i!!!!!! haha. and and the main highlight was that toss in the air that ryu-kun did!! omg!!!! he scare the shit outta me! when i first watched it last nite.. my heart stopped for a moment lo! then even after that i still feel like my soul left my body!! hui fei yan mie~ haha... so bu ke si yi~~~~~ but i'm really worried.. cuz the dancers din seem to catch him v well... yaaaaaaaaada!! lucky everythg's fine! well.. who ask him to be ryuichi? haha... superryu!!! ahh~~ wif keita's bad hair days recently.. i'm so into ryu... haha... esp after watching the kouhaku perf. tell me... he is cute!!!!! hahaa ok i think i'd admit tt ryu doesnt look dashing (cuz i cant fine a nice screencap for my msn avatar) but he is definitely cute!!!!!!!! No.1 cuttie in Mother Earth!! haha... XD i dun think there can be anyone else tt's as kewt!! haha...

c! i got cute cute ryu to think abt.. so i shud noe wad to do tmr rite? hee... xiao liang is xiao liang. ryohei is ryohei. ryohei is xiao liang BUT XIAO LIANG IS NOT RYOHEI!!! mai, wake up!!!! heee... go thinks ryu.... kawaii!!! eh... wait did i jus say school? -puke-

I need SUPER LOVER at 11:02 PM

spent the first day of 2007 with wendy at vivo.
erm.. ok it's the pet safari at vivo to b exact. hahaha.
we got so crazy wif our nintendogs game tt we were so into dogs rite now!! so we spent like 2-3 hrs jus standing in the pet shop staring at the dogs!!
we even gave them names lo... bear... braja... zai zai.. so cool rite??
then we saw 2 pairs of (mad) toy poodles beating each other.. so our conclusion is poodles are siaow one. heee...
Bear so ke lian... ming ming shi dog, but kana say to be polar bear(shock), lion (shocker) & panda????!!! (shockest) but..HE IS A entirely white DOG!!! oh my tian!!!

then we went to the salty pool on the top level of vivo to pao our feet! so shiok!!
but we really suay xing sia.. we went 2x... both times oso rain lo!!
BUT.. i hope to go there and pao jiao n eat ice cream soon!!!!

I need SUPER LOVER at 12:26 AM

Monday, January 01, 2007

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Happy 2007!

decided to come back after all. bcuz xiaoli says "the most dangerous place is the safest place" haha XD
ahhh hao xiang niang nee... xiang da han yi sheng: tadaima!!!
(listen for reply: okaeri)
ahhh... mei you :(
haha of cuz la... silly me! no one knows rite?

gg to change the pic later... wish me luck k??
(i think i'll fail thou)

hmm.. new year resolutions?
1. i'm not spending any money (except food)
i really need d money to go japan next yr
2. i wanna go Guam for honeymoon!!! haha
(keita :: hint::)
nah... it's not gg to come true.. jus hope i can go Guam soon!!
frm vacanza & liang jing ru's ciao shou la da shou, Guam is really scenic!!!
ahh.. i cant stop listening to that song... so nice!!
sweeeeeeeet!!
3. forget everyUNHAPPYthing tt has happened last yr..
(i know who & wad i mean ::wink::)

I need SUPER LOVER at 12:31 AM

Friday, October 14, 2005

acty was thinking of closing this whole thg d past few days. cuz it makes me feel............ ey............ how to say ley??....... stupid?! hahha. yeah. smtimes i felt so manipulated. used. played. haha. doushite? only keita can slave me nee~ wahahhaha.... yeah but then today i came n saw vie n kelx tagged. man... i'm so touched. i realised so there are ppl who read my blog still despite d rows n rows of letters abt keita n w-inds. thanks nee~ so yea i've decided to cont blabbering abt my darlings!!!!!!!

these few days had been hectic too. wonder y?? haven touched much of my lappy cuz my sis needs it for her assignmt. aww.... no wonder i felt sick. haha. withdrawal symptons of online-addiction. everyday mus online at least once. sigh.. acty also dunno online for wad lor. hahha. except msn n dl-ing w-inds. stuffs. nthg to do oso. haha. then msn oso nthg much to tok. like now la tt pi pi ah min mus b go maple-ing again. nv reply me. kns de la. then cecil ff7-ing. i oso dunno how to respond to her. cuz haven watch la. haha.

well... went for 2 pi pi interviews yest n today. but v thanks for d recommendation. but i still dun have gd feeling abt it. haha. mayb i read too much manga le bah. hahha. got bei hai wang xiang zheng. heee~heee where got so gd deal one?? smells fishy wor. haha. ok la like i say i think it's only MY prob la. bsides i this kind of ppl no ambition one. hahhaa. so earning big bucks n stuffs doesnt really appeal to me at all. i jus wan a simple life. got enuf money to go watch w-inds. live every yr can le. no need to have cars or hse or wad la. tai ma fan le. i wait for keita to feed me bah~ wahahhahahaah....

hai yo these days kept having headaches. mayb i really got some brain cancer or wad la. oh shit! will i lose my memory?? die la. cant forget keita wor. no matter wad. hahhaa. other than tt acty losing memory oso gd la. can restart. somethgs r better not rem. de shou?? but anyway so fast sch's starting. *gulps* cant believe it sia. tt time still looking forward to go tw c my darlings then now next sem start again. sigh... hen sian wor. dun feel like gg sch ley. tired la.

n i haven gotten over my first w-inds. concert at tw. still stupified. now any articles abt w-inds. in tw will make me cry. btu i noe there'll b lots. cuz thye jus went last mth so this mth mags sure a lot de. then ah~ whenever i watched yu le bai fen bai will kept rem-ing tt day when w-inds. attended. aww.... i missed my darlings. well it's been 2 weeks. i'm still stuck on d nite of 9.25. whereas i'm sure keita has moved on. saw their new cm. v siong. esp d clothes!! pink suit nee~ think i can faint la. but d song was their new single to b release on 23 nov. haha. thumbs up! sounds real cool. nthg limited this time think i won b getting bah. gotta save up. cuz got ageha dvd n live tours next yr.

awww.. seriously dun feel too gd la. dunno y oso. hate being alone. but dun wanna go out too. dun feel like facing anyone. incl myself. die la... m i gg to suffer frm autism soon?? *gasps* anyway yang cheng lin's songs r real nice. haha. she's cute la. like a doll. i oso wished i look like tt. small small de. kawaii de. then wear yang zhuang very nice nee~ like princess keiko <3>

I need SUPER LOVER at 1:34 PM

Sunday, October 09, 2005

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... this is killing me. stupid cecil. wad is she thinking. comparing w-inds. to f4?? pls... oh god. w-inds. r so many times better. ok i'm biased. but dun u guys think so too?? i mean ok let's say w-inds. n f4.. who'll vote for?? w-inds. rite?? f4 is jus soooooooooooo urghhhhhhh.... okok i USED to b a fan too. n i dun hate them IF NOT for cecil's pi pi equation. w-inds. = F4?? my god!! kill me pls.............. if w-inds. ever = F4. no way can they b put in d same line as w-inds. thye r jus sooooooo tooooooo diff.

anyway i'm so traumatised now. din noe to laugh at cecil's weird logic or to cry tt someone acty thinks keita resembles tt darn jerry frm f4. pls i hate him d most frm f4 ok? n cecil had to say tt keita resembles him?? omg.... how can tt b?? my poor keita. wad wrong has he dun. he mus have offended cecil some way. ahhh.. pls..... cecilia~ dun punish keita by saying tt of him. curse me if u wan. i felt so sad hearing ppl say tt of keita. tt he's faking it. tt he's too egoistic. basically tt he SUCKS. trust me. i really wanna cry hearing those words. esp frm a w-inds. fans. i mean not tt wad she said it's not true.. but i dunno.... it jus feels so sour hearing ppl tok bad abt ur loved one. not like tt i like ppl to love him like i do (love is selfish) but at least to acknowledged wad he is doing. it's really not easy ppl. mayb u all dun feel it. but being d same age i think both he n ryu r really marvellous. i mean at d same age look at wad they have acheive n look at myself. i felt so ashamed. i'm nthg. starting out at 15 if u think it's easy. then u r wrong. not even now at 20 do i think i cud leave here n strike out on my own. i'm scared. honestly abt my BIG plan 1 n 1/2 yrs later. but to think they cud leave their family n go some foreign place all by themselves. wif so much uncertainty. now tt they got a lil fame. ppl take them for granted. i mena yah~ it's their job to perform n please d fans. but c'mon give them a break. they r still ppl like u n me. they do have bad emotions. they do make mistakes. they do have flaws. dun u think sometime fans r expecting too much outta them?? have to sing well. cant have gfs. i mean... pls la... any normal 20 yr old teenage will wan to have a relationship ok?? so dun we think we r too much?? i mean do they owe us anythg?? nope. y do we wan to restrict so much of their lives. i dunno. but i think keita has given more than enuf. he doesnt owe me anythg. it's my prob tt i shud like me. same as d other fans. y do we have to behave like jus cuz he's job is an artiste then he gotta accept all d pressures tt comes wif d job. well ok tt's of cuz but is d pressure tt we r giving them a lil too much. overboard?? we r asking so much frm them. they have gave us their youth n 80% of time. practising. recording. tour. n yet we kept wanting more. more n more. rnt we being a lil too much. i'm starting to ahte myself being a fan of them. i mean i do like them. but i felt tt d term "fan" isnt someone who really appreciates. n i'm not. i'm so grateful to w-inds. if i ever cud i hafta thank them personally. mayb to them i'm jus no diff frm other "fans" but at least to me they r diff frm wad other "fans" took them to b. to me i like them as individuals. not cuz they r artiste. well may it started wif tt but now it's evolved into smt otherwise.

wow~ phew! sorry i jus cudnt control. have been thinking abt this so long. i wonder hoe many of the fans really like them?? not as artiste but as ryohei.keita.ryuichi. ok u may say i'm not liking them as they r. i mean like i've said. i dunno wad's d "rite" way to do so. if there's a formula. i'll do it. but there isnt. so i can jus based on my feelings tt i'm sure they r diff. my feeling towards keita r diff from d rest. i noe ryu will understand. tt's d point he kept emphasizing when toking abt gfs. but keita?? mayb like cecil say he's too egoistic to care abt tt as long as he's gf is crazy over him. but i cant cuz of tt so i decided to like ryu. althou lette says i have better chance wif ryu. hahha. so yeah~ keita... mayb u wudnt even care if u have one fan less. but it really hurts me reading cecil saying tt abt u. i wished i can take tt for u instead. now he's popular n so there r fans.. i wonder 10 yrs down d road will there b as many ppl tt like him now still like him. "fans" r so cruel. we held them up high when they r young n cute. but when they dun, jus throw them to d floor. d fall is so great. poor keita. i cant imagine he has to go thru tt next time. so many ppl noe say they'll like w-inds. forever. but i wonder how many will acty do. incl myself. but well at least i'll try my best to. work towards it.

keita 辛苦了~

I need SUPER LOVER at 4:28 PM

yoooo~hoooooo wow it's d lonely bluely sat nite again. surprisingly i'm feeling kinda ok tonite. not lonely. not depressed. a lil happy. haha. doushite?? wakaranai. mayb it's d new keita's e-towers tt i've jus saw. haha. suddenly i jus feel tt it soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good to have lovede keita. haha. loving him is like one of d most shiawase thg tt can happen to a ger. he's jus tooooooo perfect a lover. i mus have been lucky in some way too... to have "met" keita n liked him. so acty life's not tt mean to me rite?

n yup cecil~ i'll WAIT. tt's d only thg i can do bah. wait. wait. wait. wait. wait. i'll jus keep waiting. i'm sure one day even 2 parallel lines is gg to meet. mayb next life. next next life. i dun care. tt's my conclusion after thinking for 2 days. i had been wondering how can i like keita. wad is d rite way to love someone. can i call myself "love" keita when i dun even noe him personally? i think this is smt so deep. i will nv get an ans. if there's a particular way to love someone i think i'll feel better. at least doing all those thg will b proof tt i'm loving keita. but there isnt. so i'm feeling a lil lost. wad shud i b doing so i'm not jus wasting my days away but acty doing smt meaningful to me -- loving keita. but then mayb i shudnt think so much. to each his own. i'll love keita MY WAY.

last nite ah~ i was thinking i'm not gg to look at guys. haha. sounds weird. dun worry i'm not les ok?? i was jus thinking how faithful can i be. i wan to like only keita. yup. no more ryo's n ryu's nonsense frm me. hahaha. jus keita. yeap. for d next 10, 20 yrs. it'll jus b keita n only keita. i wan to c myself doing tt. call tt my ambition bah. i oready dunno wad i wan in this life. mayb to have seriously like someone b4 bah. so yeah~ i tot mayb if i'm not gg to care abt getting myself a bf (except keita) then i wud b less concern abt how others r looking at me (i oways feel tt guys r laughing at me so i try to keep low profile wif dressing n stuffs) then mayb i'll b able to live d "me" i wan to be. n mayb tt'll make me a happier person? a happier person will naturally shine more. then mayb keita can "see" me then. wahhaha.

so i have decided. but then i saw xiao liang's pic. n i'm thinking twice. shucks! i gotta get him outta my mind. no more xiao liang. only keita, keita n more keita in d days to come. *shakes head violently*

oh yah.. suddenly realise i'm been sleeping for d past 3 days. since tt hprrible headache. *gasps* n i'm still feeling tired. my head still aches on n off these days. mayb i'm really dying. i rem how one of my fren's bro, healthy young man, came hm one day feeling v tired. n for d next 2 wks he kept feeling tired. then when he finally went to d dr. it was leukemia. dramatic as it seems. but it's 100% true. then ard 2 weeks after tt he died. i was shocked hearing tt. thou i personally dun not noe him. but i can still sense some of my fren's misery. it was jus too..... unpredictable... tt's life. it comes as n when it likes. n it can go d same way too. u nv noe. someone tt dear to u may jus b gone d next day. i hope i'll nv have to exp tt. so pls.... let me die b4 keita.

ok i hope i can sleep less.. i wanna go buy my dream pants. wahhaha~ but there's 2. which one shud i get?? one is same as aya ueto n it looks real gd (on her) n d other is those bling bling one. feels so much like super lover. wahahha~ ooooooooh~ if u ever saw w-inds. performance back during those super lover days.. man! their jeans was jus kira kira** so nice. have swear tt i'll get myself one in this life. it's jus too good. omg... " hi baby dont u know me i need super lover tonite " wahhahahhaah~ keita keita keita ** kira kira kira ** kawaii~

ok i'm getting a lil too over wif my keita-ness. but oh man~! i nv had a revelation like today. loving keita was jus too gd. too gd a thing to have happen to me. so yeah for once i'm loving life. hahha.

today c news got 2 bloggers got jail cuz of posting anti-muslims remarks. *gulps* scary nee~ suddenly rem i got soem anti-tw postings a few mths back. hope i wont b jailed for tt. but then hor.... i think v pi lor. like tt oso wan to jail ppl. i mean blog is "lim beh"'s one mah. so "lim beh" wan to write wad is "lim beh"'s business rite?? like tt oso mus control. spore ahhhhh... really "FINE" city man!! buay ta han. i gotta get out of this darn place. oh shit! will i b jail for this too? ai yah this whole thg is jus too fei fei la. no justice de lor. y m i studying some pi pi law then?? chen shi mo ming qi miao!

messages~
wendy: for some time. d other time u were sick rite?? hope u r well now. take care. c ya soon??! n coll: u gg for ur gum op tmr rite?? ey... wad shud i say ley?? good luck sounds wrong. haha. get well soon bah. oh andrea: when r we gg for d buffet??

I need SUPER LOVER at 1:13 PM

Saturday, October 08, 2005

i slept d whole of today. d headache is gone but i still feel goggy. like i'm on some kind of drug. jus cant seem to b awake. n then there's sch tmr. wad shit sia. so damn hate it. arghhhhhhhhhhh.... althou i hate staying at hm too. urghhh. there's nthg i wan to do. hao fan ah... hafta do some shitty stuffs tt i dun wan to do. wad kind of world is this man??? fuuuu~ma pls destroy earth. wahahahha~ suddenly i feel like watching X so much. d theory behind is so gd. it's d best comic.

oh yah n tt day i suddenly realise so arts central is showing peacemaker. wad d... how come no one tell me??? n it's d final 3 epi oready. grrrr.... i wannna watch peacemaker la. i need c some blood n killing. cuz i jus feel like killing these days. everythg's jus seem so........... stupid. useless. meaningless. shud i get d vcd? saw it at comics connection tt day. hmm... o.0?

ohhh jus finish watching epi 12 of e mo. mus say i really like it when it's abt yuan yi. haha. cuz now i think d show's nice again. yuan yi's gd nee~ i like d way he like qing zi. makes me wan to fall in love nee!!!! hahha i think i'm getting despo la. gotta control a lil. like shiki oways say "mus have jing chi" hahahha... but it's so hard. i'm so tired. i hope i can have a place to load some of my weariness. awww... keita~

i dunno y. kept thinking abt d snow tt nite. it was 15.12.02. yeah~ d snow at sapporo tt nite kept flouting in my head. it seems so beautiful. come to think of it i have seen snow for a long time. i missed seeing snow. mayb i'm a dec baby tt's y. snow n x'mas meant smt special to me. i love winter wear. d layers n layers of clothing can keep me accompanied. i hope i can spend one x'mas wif snow. n keita. cant get izayoi no tsuki off my mind. "when u said sorry did u cry?"

I need SUPER LOVER at 2:12 PM

Friday, October 07, 2005

sigh.. feel so damn sick n weak now. for d past 24 hrs i was tormenting wif a real bad headache. nv had one tt lasted so long n hurts so much. felt like as if someone was squeezing my brain. cant even slp well last nite. then today had an interview. really cant get myself to go out. but shit! my mum had to say tt of me. for d sake of pride i went. yeah... dragging tt frigging headache along. was slping my way thr n back. lucky there's keita's voice. then i cancelled a date wif hy. sigh~ since last last sem we had nv been able to go out tgt. finally today we were supposed to go out n i had to have tt darn headache. shit man! mayb i'm dying. it's some brain cancer or smt. haha. well not tt bad acty. i wanna die b4 w-inds. i dun think i can live w/o w-inds.

was watching clips of w-inds. omg.... keita's jus too gd to b true. i wished live's all abt watching w-inds. haha. dun feel like i cud do anythg else. when one's sick. really wished someone cud b there. as i was watching d clips 好像跟 keita 撒娇 wor. n let him take of me. dun feel like i hav d energy to hold on on my own. esp seeing d snow. 因为有 keita，飘下的雪都是温暖的。我宁愿化身成那雪，就算下一秒就将溶解，也只为这一秒能停留在 keita 身上。

dunno if i will get d job today. seems likely cuz they brief me quite detailed. but say will call me again if i'm selected. hmm... dun really noe if i shud feel happy or sad. i jus noe i need d money. cuz i saw d pants of my dream yest. omg... it was exactly tt same one tt i dreamt abt buying d nite b4. haha. v over rite. but yeah~ i was so excited.... let's go get them after ur pay-day shiki?! ok? wooo~hooo hope somehow i can fit in. haha. i MUST get it.

ahhhh my knitting is not gg on fine. smt's look wrong. think i mus have missed or did smt. *gasp* i dunno if i can make it in time for ryo's bday. acty i was thinking of giving them tgt on x'mas. erm... more 应景 bah... hahhaa... then bday wad shall i get nee?? 真是伤脑筋耶~ acty i oso dunno if they'll ever used it. but then i wan to MAKE smt for them. smt i can put all my 心思 into n give them. so whether they'll use it or not i jus wanna bring my wishes n misses across. every knit is a "i miss u", "take care" etc... gomen i jus need some assurance on wad i'm doing. feeling so insecure rite now.

arghhhhhh... feel like i'm breaking down. jus so sick. there's still many tmrs. urghhhhhhhhhhhh i dun wanna wake up anymore. so tired. tsukareta. i miss keita. wonder wad is keita doing now? 过得好吗？hey minna san, honestly m i being overly obsessed? wif keita? n w-inds.? i think i'm getting sicker. it's a viscious cycle. i cant stand myself anymore. 杀了我吧！

I need SUPER LOVER at 1:23 PM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

i'm seriously getting mad. ask coll today n i think she'll nod her head vigoriously. no tt i think of it i think i wanna apologise to coll la. v paiseh hor. somemore i tok so damn loud de lor. ^^' acty i think my frens r very ke lian la. cuz i'm v uncouth ley. die la like tt how?? after all i'm a GIRL mah. mus have nu hai zi de yang de shou? cannot la. really gotta change sia. else sure jia bu chu qu de. ok so here shun bian say "sorry" to all xiang qing fu lao for toking so loud whenever we r out. hai ni men dui lian le. bu hao yi shi. wo hui gai de. gambarimasu.

next sem... a new me. jing qing qi dai ok? haha. kan wo 72 bian. but hor.. to really 72 bian hor need many many many many $$$$ ley. sai la. i hope i get a job soon. onegai ~pq~ ok let's c wad i gotta buy? need money for plastic surgery. revamp my cupboard (n this is seriously a lot!! enuf to kill). n many many w-inds. stuffs. n w-inds. concert. so u c.. i rob 10 banks oso not enuf. sigh~ any rich man wan to bao me? wahhaha. i dun mind wor. XD

i'm mad!!!! seriously sick ah. i wan to have a baby sooooooooooooooo much now!!! a baby boy. a baby boy like ryuichi. haha. oooooh~ anyone wan to give me a baby?? hahhaa. ok this sounds very wrong. hahha. ok i mean anyone from w-inds. cecil ask me go matchmaking. -___-''' *bishhh @ cecil* somemore say wad if i dun put too high expectation sure can find de lor. she pi la. NOBODY WANS ME ok?? so i pretend i only wan w-inds. mah. so can xia tai u noe. wakarimasu ka?

oh yah speaking of cecil. suddenly rem a few nites ago we tok smt so v pi. mus blog else my STM ah.. i will forget de. it's so farni lor. mus put in yellow n black. hahha. ok. she said she wans keita voice. so we tok abt how she can get keita voice etc.. a lot of rubbish basically. haha. then suddenly we jus yi kou ting sheng say "sounds like mermaid" hahha. dun u think so?? so keita was "mermaid" cecil was d witch n i'm d prince. haha. then i say "yeah keita likes me" then she had to pour cold water say "u r from a diff world as keita. n u r not tgt in d end" *grrrrrr....glares* #@#$%^%* y? y? y? cecil~~~~~~~~~~ y? anyway she concluded tt she dun care cuz she'll eventually have keita's voice. ehhh.. wo hai neng shou she me nee?? n mind u ok.. this ger here is 4 F-O-U-R years older than me hor. but she's so farni. when she's in a gd mood la. can oways make me high. esp recently. our "yummies" tok abt ryu & kei. hahhaa...

she oways encouraged me. tell me i'll b able to meet keita one day. if i perserve. she's so nice rite? well mayb u guys will think tt she's jus lying to me. but well.. i dunno. she doesnt cui hui kid's dream. hahha. mayb cuz she's liking cloud so she can c tt keita thou not probable but is possible. c d diff?? yeah~ but acty to me dun u think keita is no diff frm cloud? as in it's as good as if he doesnt exist in this dimension at all. so unreachable. sigh~ but cecil says it's my lost if i think like tt. cuz i'm oready giving up keita. ahhhh~hhh at least i have a direction in life. i jus hope i can really keep in track. n reach d destination.

oh yah yest saw tt levis top tt i saw in tw. ok lucky it came here too. (but so much slower) else i'll kill my mum. but d skirt i saw tt time no more liao. i very sad la. v long nv c skirt i wanna buy liao. then no more. guess i'm kinda down on luck recently. mus go bai bai la. else wait sch reopen ma chiam v suay. wrong classmates. oops! :X

yeah... i wished i can b in d same class as xiao liang. ahhahahhaa.. v long no mention this name le rite?? acty i din forget him la. jus nv c him so nthg to say bah. saw his buddies yest. urghhh... y not him?? who cares abt his buds?? kyahahahha XD oh yah.. suddenly rem. this thg kinda scary. weird. during d concert on 9.25 there were times when i was watching ryohei but wad came across my mind was xiao liang. *gulps* scary rite?? i mean i shud b too preoccupied cuz w-inds. was jus rite in front of me. i dun have time to finish looking at all of them. yet xiao liang can come in. =S zhen de hen pa. tt's oways y i try not to look at ryo liao. hahha. then keita la. strip sia mi sai. reminds of *** NS rite. really lor. those arms of his. very horrible la.

think i dreamt abt ryu again last nite. hahha. yes. it's his body again. wahhaa. but i think got w-inds. oso la. jus cant rem exactly wad's it is abt. hahha. my STM getting real bad sia. think i'll have lao ren chi dai zhen very young. mayb @ 21?? omg!!! tt's next yr. ok i better start a autobiography of myself. else i'll forget everythg soon. noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~ooooooo.. hahhaa i v over hor?? paiseh la. too bored at hm is like tt de. I NEED MONEY. MONEY. MONEY. MONEY. MONEY. MONEY.MONEY. MONEY. MONEY. MONEY. MONEY. $$$$$$$$$$$$__$$$$$$$$$$ *brain infested wif paper money.wahahhaa*

I need SUPER LOVER at 12:17 PM